Today

I start again

making sense of what I'm doing

means also making sense of

what the hell is going on around me

.

some times flowing

sometimes stuck

some times sitting on the sideline

watching the World at odds with itself

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sometimes way out in the cosmos wandering

wondering about the future of Eternity

and how this chaos all works out

in the end

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"in the end" is a disputed concept

in-so-far-as

we do not re-member the beginning

how can we imagine the end

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I've been so far-out

floating free of the body-mind

psycho-logically free-falling backwards

lucid-day-dreaming imaginings

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Psycho-logic - the "real" world is a projection

an apparant illusion made possible

by The Body

which we do not remember Creating

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That's a concept conveniently avoided

The Concept that we don't remember

Our own Conception is un-conscious

Our own physical birth is un-conscious

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We are conceived and born, Un-Conscious

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When do we actually become "conscious" ?

And is there anything "wrong" with being unconscious ?

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I think we become "conscious" as a result of "learning"

through the process of trying, attempting, Willing

by facing choices and making decisions

and therefore becoming "response-able"

in realising that our actions cause re-actions

and repeating our experiments

experiencing repeating patterns and adapting

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Home Life

So much depends upon Parenting

but basically it's Nature and Nurture

Structure and Chaos

freedom and control

safety and risk

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Creating a nurturing structured environment

will control safety

Creating a natural chaotic environment

will risk freedom

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kinda thing

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polarised choices and the spectrum in between

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In The Beginning There Was Darkness

Every Where

And from out of The Darkness was Born Light

For Light had desire to Live

And Dark has yearned for Life

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The First Light was conceived with in The Dark

The First Light was Born OUT-OF Darkness

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And Thus was Creation

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M other yearned for Father

Mother Conceived of Father

Mother Birth Father

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Father is Son of Mother

Father is "masculine" of Mother

Father is expression of Mother

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Father is other of M-other

Father is extension of Mother

Father is distinct from Mother

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Father is di Stance from Mother

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M other D ark E motion Y earn S pace

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Unconscious feeling gave rise to Light-MinD-Ark

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Feeling gave Rise to Idea

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M other gave Birth to GoD

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M in D became capable of Being

conscious, of the unconscious .:.

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2 realms interpolateing

each with-in each-other

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M ate D

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M in D

MuM & DaD

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We have these arch-i-types within us

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For Life to become manifest

Female gave Rise to Male

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Light is a point in Space

Light moves around in Space

Light explores Spaces

Light learns about Space

Light exists in Space

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Between D ark and Light is a spectrum

A rainbow of frequencies

Infinities of possibilities

Between D ark and Light is Creation

.

And here we are made manifest

some how entering into "Body"

some how be come physical

some how be come distinct

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With Thoughts and Feelings

Governed by Laws of Physics

Needing to Sleep at Night

Having to Die eventually

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We are points of Life existing for a Mom-ent

Mum-bling our Languages

M-othering each Other

M-ate M-ake M-ore M-others

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May Tree Arch Y

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In Trick Ate

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A Gain

Here I Am today

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Today

I start again

making sense of what I'm doing

means also making sense of

what the hell is going on around me

.

I have Feelings

I have Thoughts

I have memory

I have experience

I have unconscious

I have conscious-ability

to explore the unconscious-realM

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Here I Am practising the ability

to consciously dive-in to unconscious

processes processing reality

somehow Creating the future-now

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DE in-cisions CUT like scissors

Sky Circle Square Seen Scene Screen

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DeCisions bifurcating decision-trees

Blossoming futures

and/or dreaded con-sequences

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Take a breath

exhale

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It is feeling that gives rise to thoughts

Carts cannot pull horses !

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D ark surrounds Lights focus

like "physics" surrounds our ears

or Sight surrounds our eyes

like sleep surrounds each "day"

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It's an other quest i on

to explain "The Fall"

into sub-conscious "TimE"

how-ever

The Ego-ic World-View is

out of kilter

Day strives against Night

Conscious against Unconscious

The Conscious fighting against Sleep

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As if the Sea were at war with the Land

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Adjust Vision

Imagine ebb and flow

In-spire and let-Go

In-spire and let Go-D

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Rest some TimE - beyond Knowledge

Para-noia

Para-gnosis

Para_knowledge

Para_Know Ledge

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Envision beyond the con-fines

of your limited-self Knowledge

and jump off the edge of Knowl Edge

jump off the Ledge of Known

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let go of language and gurgle and chortle

let-go of noun

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Allow your Self to Dream

Allow your Self to be felt

by the Original Mother

Allow the Waves to cease

and for Eternity to Breathe

and truly Feel the Power of Feeling

The Mother of God

Relaxing

@Peace

Breathe

in Peace

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Rest in Peace

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